Tired Out

     Our little Hazelnut has recovered so nicely from surgery and is completely off of her pain medications!  She sits up in bed on her own, climbs onto a chair, takes walks, jumps and has been dancing! God has truly blessed us... That being said, this last round of Chemo has been a little rough on her tiny little body.  After 5 rounds of grueling drugs and a major surgery, I think her body has had enough of this Chemo.  Wednesday night, she spent the whole night whimpering and telling me "I don't feel good".  She even told me to come sleep with her in her bed and asked me to rub her back. Although it as been so difficult to watch her feel this way and not be able to fix it, I LOVE being able to be the one she turns to for comfort.  Especially since the few days after her surgery, she wanted nothing to do with me!  I think she was mad at me because I have to be the one to tell her she must go through all of the poking, prodding and uncomfortable procedures.  She was probably pretty tired of me too, since I'm always around!  After rubbing her back and trying to get her to relax a bit by rubbing some essential oils on her and doing some aromatherapy, she ended up vomiting a few times and her tummy has been gurgling quite fiercely, accompanied with some diarrhea (sorry if that's too much information!).  She isn't eating much and between her spurts of energy, just wants to cuddle up in bed a watch a movie.
     Last night was a much better night though.  One of the 3 Chemotherapy drugs that she has to be on during this cycle, Cytoxan, was not included in the cocktail because it was only a two day dose, while the others were 3 days.  Once this one was removed, she has been feeling a lot better.  She slept the whole night, only waking up when they have to come in to take her vital signs.  She still wanted me to sleep with her, so we stayed up until about 11:30pm chatting away and praying that God will continue to heal her body and help the Chemo do it's job in taking her Neuroblastoma away.  Each time we pray, she keeps thanking Dr. Bliss for taking the tumor out and it just melts my heart!  When she's older, I can explain to her how it was an extremely skilled team of people who worked for hours and hours to complete her surgery and that she can be thankful for each and every one of them.  Although her spirits are so much higher today, she is still pretty tired out and not eating much, so I know that she is ready to be done.  I know I am ready for it to be done. Thank goodness tonight is the very last round. The chemo should be done around 10:00pm tonight and the doctors say that we can go home tomorrow morning!  I think being home will be so much better for her appetite and her spirits, so I cannot wait!