Amazing God

*DAY +73 POST TRANSPLANT & 80 STRAIGHT DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL*

     The last few days have been nothing short of miraculous and remarkable.  Our little Hazel is finally back! She is talking and signing like her old self and has made such extreme progress in all her therapies. She has even been walking across the room with her walker! God has worked such a miracle and has given us the best Christmas present of all: WE ARE GOING HOME BY NEXT FRIDAY AND POSSIBLY EVEN ON CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!!!!!!!!  We never dared to hope for this after hearing Hazel's initial assessment of needing to stay 4-6 weeks, but God knows the deepest desires of our hearts and gave such strength to our little girl that He is making it happen! We are beyond elated and hope you all will celebrate with us!

     One more thing I would like to share is about many messages I have received over the last eight months. Many people have commented or asked how a loving and good God could have done something like this to our daughter.  This very question is something we have asked ourselves as well. And honestly, I truly dislike that cookie cutter answer of "It's all in the plan". As Christian's, yes, we do believe that God has a bigger plan and that whatever happens in our short lives while on earth, it plays a small role in the bigger picture. But I also believe there is something else at play here. I truly believe that cancer is not something that God inflicts on His people, but it is a product of living in a broken, sinful world where Satan is allowed to do his worst. Our family has been inflicted with this calamity, sure, but so many unexpected things have come out of it. It says in the Bible that God uses our suffering and pulls out the good from it. I have seen God more vividly than I ever dreamed possible, and so have my children. Any doubts that I had in my belief in Him have been dispelled and I would not change that for anything. Also, He has shown me the amazing intricacies and power of the human body which have only led me to believe more and more that He divinely created us. Its doesn't make any sense to me that Hazel's body, fighting the way it has, could be an accident. Also, we have seen THOUSANDS of people affected for good because of our family's journey. We have been given the ability to change the world of childhood cancer at a global scale and we feel so thankful for that as well. We also have all grown so close together as a family in a way that we would never have otherwise. We take NOTHING for granted anymore. We also have seen that without this suffering, our family would not understand compassion the way that we have. Our kids and family are helping & caring for others and we have seen so much compassion for our family as well.  And lastly, I have come to understand God's long suffering in such a tangible way and have been able to learn more from that than any other thing in my life. He suffered in the most horrific way. Not only did Jesus (God incarnate) have to die and suffer in the most horrific way imaginable, but His Father had to watch His son go through it. I feel, in some small way, we have been able to understand that suffering and are able to learn so much from Him in how He handled it. He has given us so much strength, peace, courage and understanding. And I absolutely know that is GRIEVES HIS HEART to watch his children go through this kind of suffering, but ultimately we know that it will only make all of eternity with no suffering that much sweeter!

     I will let you all know what day we get to go home, but I may not post for a little while because I wanted to enjoy EVERY SECOND we get a home! Have a wonderful Christmas!!!