Treatment

Today is the day that our new normal begins.

Today, we made our final decision and had a double port (which solved our dilemma!) placed inside our daughter.

Today is the first day of a new treatment protocol that has no protocol.

Today is the day that our brave little Hazelnut begins her fight against cancer for the second time.

Today, chemo has already begun.

At this very moment, I am sitting next to my beautiful daughter as her first dose of chemo flows through her veins.  To be honest, I am heartbroken, terrified, anxious and in utter disbelief.  This all still feels so absolutely unreal.  

While I cope with this surreal moment, I figured I would take another one to update all of you.  We spoke with the doctor last week to discuss Hazel's "treatment plan".  As some of you may know, when a child is first diagnosed with cancer, the doctor gives the family a treatment protocol, or what we like to call a "roadmap".  When a child relapses, this is not the case, so I use the term "treatment plan" fairly loosely.  Many times, children who relapse do not respond to the first form of treatment, so many different options are tried.  I like to describe it like this:  The cancer comes back, so you throw everything you know of at it and hope something sticks.  

So right now, we are throwing our first punch with the new treatment of Immunotherapy and Chemotherapy together that I have detailed before.  The doctor actually seemed slightly optimistic, which is not generally the attitude towards relapsed Neuroblastoma.  She has seen very promising results recently, and has hope that Hazel will respond favorably.  We will do this treatment inpatient this week, then again three weeks from now.  Once that second round is finished, Hazel will have another round of scans to see how she is responding (which will fall sometime at the end of September).  If she is responding, then it will be very good news, and we will continue on the same protocol with the hope that it will just melt this cancer away.  If she remains stable, we will, more than likely, continue with the protocol and reassess at the next round of scans.  If she has progressed, then we move onto our next line of defense, which in our case will be the targeted therapy for her ALK mutation.  We will continue with this wait and see approach, and change our course if necessary until we bury this thing in the ground!

Many families have contacted me saying that their children have done very well on this treatment, and even get to stay home the whole two weeks between cycles with very little side effects.  So it is my hope that we can have some sense of normalcy in between.  However, it is still very possible that the treatment takes a toll on her and we end up back here more often than we would like. So please be praying that this does not happen.  As we get more settled in our room this week, I will write the post I have been planning that details how you can specifically be praying for us and helping our family during this time. For now, just pray that this treatment, and the supplemental things we are doing at home will all work together over the course of the next few weeks and do what Hazel wants it to do and "kick this cancer in the butt!".

Biopsy Results

     We just heard from the doctor, and the pathology has confirmed what we expected, but still our worst fear, that these spots are indeed relapsed Neuroblastoma.  Although very difficult news to swallow, it feel relieving to finally just have the answer so we may move forward, prepared to fight for our little Hazelnut's life.  Her bone marrow biopsy procedure was two fold: a bone marrow aspirate and a bone marrow biopsy.  The pathology is still pending on the biopsy, but the aspirate is totally clear of cancer cells!  So we are hopeful the biopsy will also come back negative.  Bone marrow is the most difficult place to treat with Neuroblastoma, so we are glad at this news because it means that she just has one more thing working in her favor.

     Now that we have this information, we meet with the oncologist tomorrow afternoon to go over treatment protocol and sign consent forms.  We will then have a better idea of what the next few months will look like for our family.  What we do know now, is that her inpatient treatments will come every three weeks, and then we are hopefully home for the two weeks in between.  But that will all be dependent on how Hazel's body tolerates the treatment.  Last time, we were in the hospital with low counts and fevers in between every single treatment, and it was very difficult on all of us.   These treatments will begin next Monday, August 29th.  She will have her port/line placed that very morning, and will receive chemo just hours later.  We are still trying to make our decision on what line to choose, but our hearts, and Hazel's are leaning more towards the port.  She said, "I think I made my decision.  I will deal with the pokey's because I really want to go swimming.".  And since we will never have an idea how long her treatment may take, we think this is the best decision for her.  If she were to have a line, that would be an indefinite amount of time that we would be taking away one of her most favorite things, and we do not think it would be fair to do that. We will continue to pray about it, and we will assess once she begins treatment, if it was, in fact, the right decision.

     Many of you have asked how you can help our family, and we have several ways for you to do that.  

• First, is to be praying!  I will write a post later this week or next on how you can specifically be praying, but I am just too emotionally and physically drained to do that now.  
• Second, is to make a donation to our family.  You can do that through the wonderful Talbert Family Foundation at www.talbertfamilyfoundation.org/pages/Hazel.html
• Third is to sign up on our Care Community so you can check our calendar and list of needs so you can see exactly how to help us in the best way.  To do so, please go to www.heretoserve.org and click on the JOIN button and fill out the registration form. Be sure to say it is Hazel Hammersley when they ask who you would like to help. You will receive a confirmation email immediately that confirms your registration was received. Within 24 hours you will receive another email with link to Hazel's Care Community! Use the link to set up your own personal login in and password to Hazel's Care Community.

     Thank you all so much for your support these past days.  Knowing we have an army behind us and around us has given us all the strength to keep pressing forward.  As before, continue to check back here for updates, and follow along in the Care Community to see if our needs change.  As for now, let me leave you with this: Hazel is feeling very well, and even with the knowledge that her cancer has returned, she continues her life as a spunky, lively and loving 5 year old little girl.  She has LOVED every single day of Kindergarten, she has spent many hours playing with her siblings and friends, and is showing so much determination to kick this cancer like she did the first time!

PET/CT Results

I honestly, in my heart of hearts, never thought I would be writing this post.  I truly believed that our little Hazelnut would forever remain cancer free.  However, the results from the PET/CT on Friday have told us otherwise:

OUR DAUGHTER, ONCE AGAIN, HAS CANCER

Even just typing those words seems totally and utterly unreal. But like so many other families who hear this news, it is most unfortunately real.

We hoped that these scans would be inconclusive as the others were, and that the biopsy next week would find nothing, but these scans were very obvious.  Not only did the spot in question surely light up, but they also found another spot on a lymph node in her neck, which confirmed what we all feared, that this is indeed cancer.

The doctor is quite certain that it is RELAPSED NEUROBLASTOMA, but there is a very small possibility that it could be a secondary cancer from treatment.  So we will continue with the biopsy as planned so we may confirm what cancer we are dealing with.  Initially it was planned for Monday, then it was moved to Tuesday.  This ripped me apart for two reasons.  The first is that Tuesday is my 30th birthday, and I did not want to receive the worst news of my life on that day (which has now already happened, so that is no longer a concern). Second, Tuesday is my son, and Hazel's younger brother, Jonah's very first day of preschool. When Hazel was first diagnosed, Jonah was only 5 months old.  Aaron, and especially I, missed so much of his early childhood and it absolutely broke our hearts.  To think we would miss yet another milestone just felt like being kicked while we were down.  I just HATE how much cancer takes away.  Thankfully, after consulting with the surgeon doing her biopsy, he heard my heart and moved our appointment back to Monday with no hesitation! 

The results from this biopsy should take a couple of days now, and once we get them, we can move forward with a treatment plan.  Tentatively, she will begin treatment on Tuesday August 30th.  If it is in fact Neuroblastoma, we will first move forward with a treatment option that is proving to be much more successful than anything ever has in the past.  It is chemotherapy paired with immunotherapy.  From what we understand, the type of chemo she will receive will be less harsh on her little body, so she may be able to resume some "normal" activities between treatments, which will be on a three week cycle.  We also need to decide whether to place a central line or a port in her body to administer treatment, either one most likely being placed on Monday the 29th.  Her treatment will require two access points, which is easily done with a central line that has two tubes attached to it already.  A port is only one access point, so she would require an IV to be placed every time she would go into treatment.  Initially our though was to, of course, choose the central line.  Hazel has such overwhelming anxiety about needles, and a port requires a needle access, and then she would also have another needle with the IV placement.  However, we also know how much she adores swimming and taking a bath.  A central line will never allow that, and a port would allow for everything.  With relapse, there is also no treatment plan, so there is no way of knowing how long it will be.  It could be years.  Would we want to take swimming and bathing away from her for that long?! A central line requires constant care, supervision and protection.  It could be caught on something, broken, pulled or have an infection introduced.  It also requires painful dressing changes once a week.  A port does not require nearly as much.  But, again, is it worth absolutely traumatizing her every three weeks for treatment and for the lab draws in between?!  How can you choose between two bad options for your beautiful little daughter?!  This is something that will take prayerful consideration, and also will be including Hazel's opinions.

Obviously this news has been overwhelmingly difficult for our family to digest.  We had to tell our family, and of course Hazel and our children.  These conversations were certainly very difficult, but God has been so faithful in granting our children strength and peace, that it has just amazed me.  I will not say, however, that these past two days have not been without tears, questions, thoughts and fears.  It has been hard on them, and on us.  I think though, that I will share these conversations in another post, because I will be asking for so many specific ways you can be praying for and supporting us, that it will not be beneficial to do it now.  I will say, however, that Hazel is doing well.  She feels good, and has taken this news in her stride and has said, "God healed me before, and He is my hero!  He can do it again!  And I am going to beat it again!"

For now, please pray that we can digest and cope with this news and begin to, somehow, organize our life and community around us so that we can move forward the best way we can.  We will be detailing the ways you can help our family soon, so please be on the lookout.  Thank you all for your continued support and prayers these past few days.  We felt so loved and cared for, and it helped beyond measure.

Hazel lost her second front tooth the morning of the scan, and was so excited to share it with all of you.

Scan Results

     While I had a plan for what this update would look like, cancer had other ones.  And if there is anything I have learned about childhood cancer, is that you can never really have plans and that you should always prepare for the unexpected.  

     In our case, the unexpected is that our little Hazelnut's scan results were not  the usual NED (No Evidence of Disease) that we have enjoyed these last months.  As you may remember, she received two different sets of scans; and MRI and an MIBG (a scan that specifically lights up when Neuroblastoma cells are forming in your body. Her MRI was Monday and her MIBG was Friday.  On Thursday, we were informed by the doctor that the MRI detected a new growth in and around Hazel's previous tumor and surgical site.  What that new growth is, they were not sure, but there was significant reason to be very concerned.  This made her MIBG results all the more meaningful.  If it was to light up, then it would be certain that our little Hazelnut would be relapsing; and if not, then she would have to receive more testing to continue to rule it out and to figure out what we would be dealing with.

     On Friday, we actually met with the doctor to go over results, directly following the scan, instead of waiting until Monday.  These results we actually INCONCLUSIVE.  Typically with Neuroblastoma, and also when Hazel was in treatment, there is no mistake when active Neuroblastoma cells light up.  With this most recent scan, the area in question did not most certainly light up, but the radiologist did detect something.  This something would be an incredibly small light indicating disease, OR it could just be the normal light that shows up when there is uptake of the radioactive material that is being filtered through her liver, kidneys and colon, all of which are close to this new growth.

    Since these results did not give us any new information, further testing is needed.  Hazel will receive a third, and different scan, called a PET/CT, that will hopefully give us some more clarity.  This will be done this Friday, August 19, in the morning.  Then she will also have a biopsy performed the following Monday, August 22nd.  When she was first diagnosed, her biopsy had to be performed with a surgery, leaving her with a lifelong scar.  This biopsy, however can possibly be done in an outpatient procedure, using a small needle.  It is appearing more and more likely, that the surgery will not have to be done, which, of course, would be the most ideal.  But we also want to make sure that we are getting the best and and most clear results as possible, so this decision is not being made lightly.  We should know which procedure will be done by the end of the week.  Lastly, while getting the biopsy of this new growth, she will also have a bone marrow biopsy performed.  Neuroblastoma likes to hide in and infect the marrow, so this test is always standard when looking for Neuroblastoma.  If all of these result in a positive diagnosis, Hazel would begin a treatment protocol immediately.  This would most definitely include chemotherapy, and would possibly include radiation, immunotherapy, and other medications currently administered on a clinical trial basis.

      Understandably, our family has been reeling from and overwhelmed by this news.  We had so much hope, that cancer would not touch our daughter again, but as in the case of many children, here we are, fearing the worst.  This is why we have continued to fight so hard for childhood cancer long after Hazel's treatment was finished.  We know that relapse was a a possibility for our daughter and is a reality for so many families.  Research money is just not enough.  Awareness is just not enough. And the priority that our fighting children are is certainly not high enough!  Our upcoming fundraiser for childhood cancer awareness month, The Ever After Ball, benefiting the St. Baldrick's Foundation, has now become all the more important. For more information about tickets and sponsorships go to www.stbaldricks.org/everafterball  These results have most certainly reminded us that research funding is so important in the lives of these children, and we will continue our fight even more determined than before.

     We have decided to not inform Hazel, and our other children about these results.  They are all to start school this Wednesday, and Hazel has been extremely excited all summer about her very first day of Kindergarten, so we do not want to worry the kids until we have to.  In that vein, we also decided to take the past two days to stay at a hotel near Disneyland and spend sometime with some magic as a family.  So while we asking all of you to stand with us in prayer, good thoughts, and support; we also ask that if you see our children, to not mention what you know.  

     Additionally, we do have some good news to report, that works in Hazel's favor no matter the outcome of these upcoming tests:

• Hazel has been feeling tremendously well and is, honestly, stronger than she has ever been.  This is a good indicator about the level of possible disease in her body, and also will support her if she has to begin treatment.
• Her blood counts are all NORMAL!
• Typically, a first indicator of disease in Neuroblastoma patients, are elevated catecholamines found in urine; and Hazel's are all within normal range!!
• Her first tumor was sent for genetic testing, and it actually had something called and ALK Mutation.  Currently, there is targeted therapy for relapsed patients that have NB and it is proving to be pretty successful!
• And lastly, just as we saw during her first arduous treatment protocol, our God and Healer has our daughter in the palm of His hand.  He tells us in JOHN 16:33- "I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart!  I have overcome the world!"

     We will of course continue to update you all as we receive results, but in the meantime, please pray for these results!  Pray for our family as we navigate these next couple of weeks with testing and school starting.  Pray for our children's hearts to be protected with peace and understanding and to be prepared if the news is not what we desire.  Also, please be praying for our children, because while driving down to Disneyland, they all showed signs of a possible cold; and while sleeping at the hotel last night, they have all developed into colds.  They all, but Hazel especially, deserve to have their first day of school, and I would be heartbroken if they would have to miss it, all things considered.  Thank you all for your continued support, and please know that it has always meant the world to our family.

Some Great News

     Thank you all for your continued support and inquiries into how our little Hazelnut is doing. I am happy to report, she continues to thrive!  She is growing like a weed and just recently completed Preschool!  I truly cannot believe that she will be in Kindergarten this fall.  To think, she started her journey when she was just two years old; boy has she come far and has God blessed our family.  We also recently had an incredible conversation with Hazel's oncologist.  Something I have continued to wonder about is how long Hazel has actually been NED (No Evidence of Disease). She received her first set of clear scans in April of 2014, but then we had about a year and a half of scans where they were concerned about a suspicious spot on her kidney.  Then, after monitoring it, and noticing no change, they once again declared her NED in December 2015.  So my question has remained, "Has Hazel been cancer free this whole time, or only since this past December?".  Well, her doctor finally put my mind at rest because she informed me that it is her opinion the Hazel has been NED since that first scan in April 2014!  This means that our daughter, Stage 3 High-Risk Neuroblastoma fighter, who almost lost her life from treatment, who could not walk or talk for months, and had one of the most difficult treatment regimens, is now more than 2 YEARS NED!!!!!  The doctor also said how optimistic she is for Hazel prognosis and just stopped short of saying that she has no concerns for her!  

At her Pre-K Graduation

     On top of Hazel's great news, we also have some amazing news with our fundraising efforts. For the past 7 months we have been working on an event that we plan to host in September for Childhood Cancer Awareness Month benefiting The St. Baldrick's Foundation.  Through some amazing divine intervention, and hard work, we are proud to announce that we will now be co-hosting an official  St. Baldrick's event!  It is called the "Ever After Ball", because every child deserves a happily ever after. Below is a copy of our Save The Date.  We also have two opportunities to donate toward our event: EVENT SPONSORSHIPS and AUCTION ITEMS.  If you, or anyone you know would be interested in attending, becoming a sponsor, or donating items for our auctions, please email me at hopewithhazel@gmail.com.  Also, check my fundraising and awareness site Hope With Hazel, for more updates!

Three Years Later...

     Today, April 19th, marks exactly three years since we discovered the tumor growing inside our little Hazelnut's body.  And this Friday is exactly 2 years since she first received, what we thought, were clear scans!  Of course, because of a suspicious spot found on her next scan, she would go on without being declared officially NED (No Evidence of Disease) until September 2015.  However, because this spot never changed during all that time, I truly believe in my heart that she has been cancer free since that April day in 2014!  So this is a very emotional and important week for our family, which is why I do not think it is an accident that her 22 month post treatment scans happened to get scheduled for this very week.  I hope and pray with all of my heart that we get to continue to celebrate victory when we get results next week.

    One thing I forgot to include in our post last week was that while Hazel has remained cancer free, cancer and it's subsequent treatment has left indelible marks on our family, but especially our daughter.  I have spoken before about the lasting side effects that treatment has had on Hazel, and we have been very fortunate that she has not suffered very many of them.  However, while at her last dental appointment, she was finally cleared to get her first set of X-Rays.  When the results came back, the dentist discovered her back teeth were full of cavities.  Hazel's teeth are very tight, so she was probably already at risk at developing cavities without proper hygiene, but the extent at which these teeth are affected can only be explained by chemo.  So next Friday, she will be sedated while they perform oral surgery to fill, crown or extract teeth as they see necessary.  It hurts my heart that she has to face, yet another sedation and medical procedure, but at the same time feel so blessed that my daughter is alive and she has been well!  

     Now as I sat down to begin writing this post to reflect on this time three years ago, I remembered the post I wrote when we first met this annual milestone, just one year after treatment.  I felt I could not write it any better than I did then, so I would like to just share it once again (with a few edits to reflect the time that has passed):


     Hazel and I spent this morning three years ago in a pediatrician's office, desperate for answers.  Hazel had been complaining of pain, had not been eating or drinking for several days, had spiked a relentless fever, had vomited and was falling asleep every few minutes.  God kept moving in me to trust my "Mommy Instincts" and not allow this matter to rest.  I remember, with tear-filled eyes, expressing to the doctor that I thought this may be cancer.  To this day, I don't know why that thought even entered my mind, given our complete lack of experience in the world of cancer; but in my heart of hearts, that was my deepest fear for my little girl who had just turned two years old.

A few weeks before diagnosis

     As Hazel lied there so lethargically, the Dr. observed terrible dehydration, an increased heart rate, and a tender and enlarged abdomen.  She believed it may have been something with the appendix and/or liver and wanted us to go over to the ER right away.  I tried calling Aaron about 15 times to tell him what was going on, but it wasn't until we were admitted that he got my messages and rushed from work to meet us.  I was absolutely terrified.  Once in the ER in Simi Valley, Hazel received IV fluids, and they did blood work and an Ultrasound of her abdomen.  

Laying on the gurney in the ER

She was so tired...

     When the radiologist and physician's assistant discussed the results, they informed us that there was a solid mass, the size of a lime (we found out later that it was in fact much, much bigger than a lime) growing inside her abdomen, but could not tell us anything else about it.  Aaron and I were extremely overwhelmed and begged God for the tumor to be benign.  I remember my body went into shock and everything became such a blur.  Then they called Children's Hospital, reserved our space and prepared us for transport.  We waited on that gurney for about four agonizing hours.  At this point, Hazel's fever was finally down and was much more hydrated, so the ambulance ride was actually great! She was constantly singing songs, waving to Daddy (who was following behind us in the car), and talking to the EMT's, who she referred to as Doctors :)  Leave it to a two-year-old precious little girl to take away the mental torment.  

     Once in the ER at Children's Hospital, it was another waiting game.  We arrived sometime around 7pm, which is when we met several nurses and doctors.  They told us they were going to review the scans to determine if they agree with the results or if they should run their own Ultrasound as well.  More blood was drawn, and more IV fluids were given.  Our family all traveled down to the hospital to be by our side, cry with and support us.  Hours later, the Doctors came in to inform us that they agreed with the results:  There is a mass inside her abdomen and there are two things they are most concerned about; a Wilm's tumor, or a Neuroblastoma.  They said we would be admitted upstairs to the oncology unit for more tests, specifically a CT scan. This was almost 1:00 in the morning.  It took several scans, tests, and a biopsy for it to be confirmed that Hazel was diagnosed with Stage 3, High-Risk Neuroblastoma.   

     At the time, having this all happen over the course of a single day seemed tremendously unfair.  However, in hindsight and with a year of experience under my belt, I realize we were unbelievably blessed by our Father to have it happen in this way.  Most families struggle for weeks or months to find a diagnosis, and by the time the Neuroblastoma is discovered, it has already spread throughout the body and is diagnosed at Stage 4.  I wholeheartedly believe that because God lead me to find answers, we were able to find her cancer soon enough that it did not spread and we could receive a Stage 3 diagnosis.  Had we waited even just a week more, it could have been a very different story.  I now know the kind of aggressive beast that Neuroblastoma is, so I am tremendously thankful we caught it when we did.  

This one verse kept coming up in those first few days, so I wrote it on the white board in Hazel's hospital room, and we were all clinging to it as we awaited the test results that would determine if her cancer had spread to her bone and bone marrow.  

     In the weeks following, we found out more than we would have ever wanted to about the world of childhood cancer and specifically about the monster we have to come to know as Neuroblastoma.  Hazel braved each test, treatment and hospital stay with a courage beyond belief.  We feared for our daughter's life and for the pain and suffering she would have to endure; but she remained a child, adapting to her surroundings, and finding to joy in every day.  We relied on the support of our family and friends, more than we would have ever imagined would be possible and without them, that would have been far too difficult for our little family to survive each day.  I don't think I can ever express fully the depth of our gratitude.  We have lost many friends along this journey, but we have gained many more new friends (other cancer families, the amazing nurses and doctors at CHLA and many supporters) who are now a part of our extended family, and I could never imagine our life without them.  

These are a few photos from those first 12 days back in April of last year:

Here is our beautiful, currently CANCER FREE daughter today:

Upcoming Events

      Wow!  I haven't posted since February!  I can tell you, though, that it has been because we have been busy planning some really awesome things coming up, but more on that later.  Our little Hazelnut is feeling better than ever!  She has grown so much these past few months, and I just look at her in such awe and thankfulness.  

     One of the greatest things we were able to do recently was the annual LAPD/LAFD St. Baldrick's Head Shaving event.  Our son Micah, and my cousin Blake, have shaved their head now for the past three years in honor of Hazel.  It has always been such a touching tribute, but this year in particular was the most heartwarming because Hazel got to shave both of their heads!  She had the time of her life!  While she took a break between shaves, she remained on stage because one of the shavers asked her if she wanted a braid in her hair.  I was finishing Micah's head and got to watch, as my once bald daughter, stood next to her bald by choice brother, with a head full of healthy hair getting a french braid done.  I cannot even begin to adequately put into words the swells of emotions that washed over me in that moment, and I am so thankful we got to have it.

     While we have truly been enjoying these last months, I have to unfortunately say that it is that time again for Hazel to have her scans.  I am especially anxious about these scans because it is our first time that we waited FOUR MONTHS instead of our usual THREE.  Neuroblastoma is such a sneaky, and extremely fast growing disease, so waiting longer to keep a watchful eye on it is especially unnerving.  She has one scan next week, and another scan the following week.  So we may not be able to update you with results until the first week of May!  Please keep our daughter in your prayers and thoughts these next few weeks!

Upcoming Fundraisers

     So onto some of the things that have been in the works and keeping us all busy!  As some of you may remember, our family has started a fundraising and awareness website called Hope With Hazel.  Rather than start our own non-profit, we decided that the childhood cancer community would benefit more if we came alongside other established organizations who are already doing so much good, and those that helped our family during Hazel's journey.  We have hosted one fundraiser so far, and now it is time for our next one!  And as a bonus, this fundraiser is 2-in-1!!  

    As our little Hazelnut is Children's Hospital Los Angeles' Pizza Girl, we thought it only appropriate to raise money for them by having a giant Pizza Fundraiser!  So we have joined up with NINE local California Pizza Kitchen locations to have 20% of their profits for all of May 5th be donated to Children's Hospital Los Angeles!  If you would like to attend, be sure to print out a copy of the flyer below.  Now not only are we going to be able to donate money to Children's Hospital Los Angeles, but we are also going to be collecting life-saving blood donations the very same day!  Did you know that one pint of your blood can save up to three children?!  Hazel received well over 70 different blood or platelet transfusions, so her life literally depending on people like YOU! We will be hosting the CHLA Blood Mobile in front of the Simi Valley location from 9:00am-2:30pm, and our family will be there, so we hope to see you!   

    We have a couple more INCREDIBLE things in the works, and once we solidify all the details, we will share it with you.  So keep watch for it!